Change itself

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 Most of the time, life scares the hell out of me. I don’t know about you, but sometimes I just wish I could catch my breath.

I wish it was as easy as swimming dipping my head under water and letting the world burn above me. Or as simple as sitting still, willing time to pause, just long enough for me to breathe again.

God knows nothing has ever come easy for me. Not waking up every morning. Not facing the same life I left behind yesterday. Each day, I wake hoping, wishing, praying for a better tomorrow, even as I know deep down the world won’t change itself.

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